Wednesday, April 11, 2012

Wordful Wednesday: Sometimes I get tired, then I remember

I spend my days either nursing a baby, holding a baby in my arms or walking around with a baby in a sling of some sort. I'm kind of one of those "attachment parenting" types, the kind that doesn't like to put the precious babe down unless I have to. This isn't everyone's style, and what works for one doesn't work for another, and I get that. This isn't a post about parenting styles though. It's a post about how tired I am at the end of the day from choosing to carrying around said baby and how bad my feet, knees and back hurt and how sometimes I just can't hold in the complaining. But today, I've had an epiphany and have decided not to complain anymore.


Because this is my last baby. And it won't be long before she's big enough to sit by herself and play. And she won't want to sit and nurse for hours on end. And she won't want to be carried around in a sling. This is all kind of hitting me now.

I should be savoring every minute I get to spend cuddled up with this little woman. Because she's the last baby that I'll get to do it with.

It's kind of sad. But also so exciting to move into a completely different part of my life. The part where I am actually raising kids, and teaching them what is right and wrong, and watching them grow and learn and make mistakes and have huge amazing accomplishments. As someone once said to me, it's a 3 ring circus and we're all in a different ring at the circus, and I'm moving from the ring where I'm pregnant and having babies to the ring where I actually start watching them grow up.

I could go on and on about how all of this is making me feel. But that would take a lot of my time {and yours} to just ramble and ramble and there's a couple of crazy boys getting a little too rough in the wrestling arena to my right {no, we don't have an actual wrestling arena......but we should}
so I'll just say thanks for stopping by!
And now I'm going to go referee a match.

(this post is linked with parenting BY dummies for wordful/wordless wednesday)